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Band-Aid
He's a band-aid.
I was hurt, and I wrapped him around me,
Stuck him to my broken bits so I wouldn't bleed my poor little heart out.
Then, when I felt better, I pulled him away.
But I wasn't better, and the scab stuck, and my wounds opened up,
And it hurt so much more than I thought it could.
I tried to reattach him, to cover up my pain, but I couldn't.
He just won't stick anymore.
I keep trying, I keep wrapping him around me, but it's pointless.
Band-aids are one time use.
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Definitions
Desire: The way I reach for you, always.
Pleasure: You, here, with me.
Electricity: The spark that dances its way from me to you.
Fragile: My heart, in your hands.
Dangerous: The way you talk when we're alone.
Pain: The ache I feel when I know you're not there.
Loss: You're not there.
Love: No, not this.
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Literature
Mixed Messages
Mixed messages have me missing out on you.
Your words speak a different language than your touch.
Do you want this?
No.
But your eyes stay with me,
Your breath is on my neck,
And I feel so close
Even though your words keep their distance.
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Literature
Fortunate
I met a fortune teller
at a bus stop one day.
She read my palms and
told me about my great
loves, past present and
future. I've always
known my loveline was
broken, and I've always
ignored it. I treat
each and every love
as the one and only
greatest thing in my
life. I have loved,
I love, and I will love.
That is the story of
the broken loveline.
The fortune teller at
the bus atop understood.
She held my hand and
smiled, and then I
stepped aboard my bus
and continued on.
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Literature
Words
If my words could make you love me
I'd write you a million love notes.
Poems, stories, songs,
Dripping with the sweet scent of alliteration,
Exhilaration at the thought of your touch.
But no, this doesn't mean a damn thing to you.
My words knock at your heart, but no one answers.
They throw rocks at your window,
But you sleep, even through my darkest nights.
My truth is not your concern.
The words I weave will keep me warm.
My love, spare not a thought for this sad soul,
For my words will never be enough
To keep your heart from soaring, falling, breaking.
If my words could make you love me,
Perhaps I would never have the courage to set pen to paper.
Love is such a nice thought, simple and sweet and carefree,
But such a burden to bear when words are all you have to offer.
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Literature
Not Poetic
I'm broken, not poetic.
      Pathetic.
It's really easy to fall in love
With a picture in a book,
      A name, a number,
A few kind words.
I am stability, sameness.
You are freedom in my eyes.
Watch me leap,
                      fly,
                           fall.
I'll never make it.
I'm broken, not poetic.
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Literature
The Distance Between Words
"I want you to be happy"
Your words pounded in my ears
As I answered the door,
Climbed into the car,
Took his hand.
"I wish I was there with you"
I stood in the warm summer night,
Blushing under his intense gaze.
He wanted so much.
Could I be that?
"But I'm not"
I tried to be enough,
But eventually,
His gaze dimmed,
And I was incomplete,
Alone.
"I want you to be happy"
I got into the car,
I took his hand,
I smiled as best I could
Against his cold gaze.
But I'm not.
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Literature
A Sip To Sleep
A sip to sleep,
That's all, she said.
A drop to keep
Her from her head.
There's nothing left
To keep her sane
Just the words
Inside her brain.
Her secrets are
Too much to bear,
Too rough, too tough,
And no one cares.
A sip to sleep,
And nothing more,
A drop to take her
Back before.
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No One Lives Here
Hollow words line the shelves
Of a heart not used for love.
Empty jars in the pantry,
Not a sock in the drawers.
No one lives here anymore,
No one loves here anymore.
We're all moving back
To something we can trust.
Yeah, we're all going back
To the way we were taught.
No one lives here anymore,
No one loves here anymore.
We're all moving back
To a house that's not a home
'Cause it's so much easier
Just to be alone.
I've read all the books,
Every single poem.
I'd be some sort of expert
If I just knew what I know,
But no one really wants
To understand this pain
Because love is always different
And we just wanna feel the same
No one lives here anymore,
No one loves here anymore.
We're all moving back
To something we can trust.
Yeah, we're all going back
To the way we were taught.
No one lives here anymore,
No one loves here anymore.
We're all moving back
To a house that's not a home
'Cause it's so much easier
Just to be alone.
I'd stick to what I know
If I knew what that was,
But everyth
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Literature
Boots
He bought me boots for Christmas.
The soles were cardboard
and they soaked up this city's rain and melted away.
and I was left with nothing but cold feet.
He bought me boots for Christmas.
The souls were cardboard
and they soaked up this city's rain and melted away,
and I was left with nothing but cold feet.
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Literature
Stolen Cigarette Smoke
He's stolen cigarette smoke covering up the lies
And she's a temporary fix in a lonely city.
His hands wander more than they should for "just friends"
And she wonders what else there could be.
Some days she'll sit on the swing set down the road
And watch the people walk past,
And some days that's just not enough,
So she turns up her music and climbs high enough to see the city lights.
Some days he refuses to go outside
And she can never quite decide if she should run to him or away from him.
He's stolen cigarette smoke and a tiny puff of truth
And she's beginning to be a little more permanent than this lonely city allows.
He pretends like "not allowed" has ever stopped him
And she laughs along at all his not-jokes.
She holds perfectly still, waiting for him to step forward.
He takes his sweet time, the picture of restraint and innocence.
But she knows he's just stolen cigarette smoke, a few lies and some hard liquor,
And her dreams are so much bigger than this lonely city allows.
He's
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If I Could
I'm not sure I quite remember what happiness feels like,
but I'm pretty sure, if I did, it would feel like him.
I can't quite get this smile to stick these days
and I know he sees it slipping
and it hurts a little deeper every time,
because I know he thinks it's his fault I'm not happy, but it's not.
If I could grab onto the little bit of warmth he gives me
and pull myself out of the dark,
I would, but right now the light is just too far away.
Some moments I think I must have started feeling okay again,
because my face forms into that unfamiliar shape
and I can feel the ache of unused muscles,
finally doing something on their own that is often so forced.
I can see the way he lights up in response,
and it's like everything begins to flow a little more rightly in my head,
just for a second.
But then, it just sorta …clicks,
and it's gone again.
If I could be happy, I would be that,
for him as much as for me,
because I know how much it hurts to watch someone you love fading,
and not
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He's a band-aid.
I was hurt, and I wrapped him around me,
Stuck him to my broken bits so I wouldn't bleed my poor little heart out.
Then, when I felt better, I pulled him away.
But I wasn't better, and the scab stuck, and my wounds opened up,
And it hurt so much more than I thought it could.
I tried to reattach him, to cover up my pain, but I couldn't.
He just won't stick anymore.
I keep trying, I keep wrapping him around me, but it's pointless.
Band-aids are one time use.
Desire: The way I reach for you, always.
Pleasure: You, here, with me.
Electricity: The spark that dances its way from me to you.
Fragile: My heart, in your hands.
Dangerous: The way you talk when we're alone.
Pain: The ache I feel when I know you're not there.
Loss: You're not there.
Love: No, not this.
Mixed messages have me missing out on you.
Your words speak a different language than your touch.
Do you want this?
No.
But your eyes stay with me,
Your breath is on my neck,
And I feel so close
Even though your words keep their distance.
I met a fortune teller
at a bus stop one day.
She read my palms and
told me about my great
loves, past present and
future. I've always
known my loveline was
broken, and I've always
ignored it. I treat
each and every love
as the one and only
greatest thing in my
life. I have loved,
I love, and I will love.
That is the story of
the broken loveline.
The fortune teller at
the bus atop understood.
She held my hand and
smiled, and then I
stepped aboard my bus
and continued on.
Fortunate
She wasn't wrong about that.
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She has values, of course.
She holds her head up high as she walks down the street.
She knows her right from wrong.
She has values,
But still, she deals in sex.
She'll sell her body for love, companionship,
For a taste of happily ever after.
She's the sort of girl you take home to your mother,
Even if you're not quite sure,
Because you so wish you were.
She's strong, and righteous,
And she has such strong values,
But still, she graces your bed for the night
If you are willing to pay her price.

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Amber
Artist | Hobbyist | Photography
Canada
I think you can learn as much about a person from what they aren't and what they don't do as from what they are and what they do.
I don't drink, don't smoke, don't do drugs. I don't believe in sex without love. I don't like lies or the people who tell them. I don't drink coke or pepsi, and I don't like coffee. I don't like math. I'm not tall, but I'm not that short. I'm not all that special. I'm not very athletic, but I do like sports. I'm a good student but I don't like school much.
I try to be honest as much as possible. I don't lie, just don't always tell the whole story to everyone. Sometimes it's none of their business. I like to talk. I also like to listen. If you ever feel like venting to someone random, I'm here.
I love to write. I love drawing, singing, playing soccer and hanging out with friends. Photography is my passion and I finally got a decent camera. Music is also a major part of my life, but more listening and appreciating than creating.
I smile a lot. Almost all the time. People rarely notice when I'm unhappy, because then they get unhappy and that just makes me feel worse. I like positive people, positive energy, and things going how they should.
I don't hate anyone. I occasionally dislike people, but even then I will always be there for them if they need me. I'm often a human punching bag, because I know I can take it, so I let angry people become less angry without hurting anyone unnecessarily.
I'm way more scared of hurting people than I am of being hurt. Other people's pain causes me pain. I know my weaknesses, my limits, but I don't know theirs. I can always fix myself, but I can't fix them.
I see things differently from most people. That's something I took a long time to realize. Things have different colours for me. I can put myself in other people's shoes fairly easily, but then I have to carry their baggage, too. I am good at mediating other people's problems, because I can see the obvious solutions that aren't obvious to anyone else, but I'm terrible when I'm the one in a fight. I get defensive too easily, I can be a real bitch, and generally, when someone's mad at you, telling them something is obvious doesn't go too well.
I'm a complicated person because I try too hard to be simple. All I really want is to be understood.
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Something With The Emotion Of Poetry

Journal Entry: Wed Oct 24, 2012, 9:47 PM


But lacking the eloquence.

Basically, some things for some people both in my life and drifting out of it.

1. You make me smile, even on my worst days. I was getting better before I met you, but you make me better every second I'm with you. Knowing you love me changes everything.

2. I worry about you, but I'm no quite sure I have the right to just yet. I like that you seem to trust me, though. That means a lot.

3. You used to mean everything to me. You were my best friend, and now, you're nothing. It doesn't seem right, but there's so much distance between us now it doesn't seem wrong either, and that's the worst part of all.

4. We've been through a lot, you and I. I'll admit, sometimes I hated you, but we seem to have leveled out these days, and I'm honoured that I'm going to be an "auntie" soon. I'm sure you'll prove the world wrong and raise a great kid. And if you don't, I'll just steal it from you.

5. You mean the world to me. You have since the day we met. I'm glad you feel the same way. Also, thank you so much for your selflessness. You let me be happy, even if it wasn't the happiness you hoped we could share. You make me want to be a better person.

6. I'm sorry I didn't get there in time to say goodbye. I miss you more than I can even comprehend right now. It just doesn't seem right, thinking you won't be there for Christmas this year, that we will never have another Sunday dinner with the whole family at your place, that I'll never get to bend in half to give you a hug again.

7. You're cool, and I hope we get to hang out more. I could use a chill girl friend over here. Hell, I could use any sort of friend.

So that's my random piece for today. Now I'm going to attempt sleeping super early 'cuz doing absolutely nothing with my life is exhausting.

  • Listening to: It's A Funny Thing - Jets Overhead

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Happy Birthday!
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Happy Birthday, Amber :cake:
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happpyyyy birthdayyyy :) :cake: :party:
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Happy birthday Amber :iconhappybirthdaycakeplz: 
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Thanks for faving 'You play dirty', Amber!  :heart:
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Thanks for the favorite <3
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Thank you so much for the fave :rose:
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Thank you so much for the fave, Amber :rose:
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Thank you very much for the fave, Amber :rose:
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Thank you so much for the fave, Amber :rose:
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One day, Laura was surfing the internet. She was just looking at her favorite pages when all of a sudden a new tab opened up. She was confused, since she didn’t click on any link whatsoever. The tab didn’t show anything, just a white screen. When she tried to close the tab, nothing happened. She kept pressing the X to close it, but instead the tab turned to full size. Suddenly, the white screen of the tab turned completely black. It wasn’t only the tab screen that turned black, all the button and everything else on her screen did the same. Even her mouse disappeared off the screen. After a little while, she decided to turn her computer off because she simply thought it was broken. She made a big mistake. Out of nowhere, a full screen picture of her mother appeared on the black screen. As she looked at it, she could see that the pictures eyes slowly started bleeding. The longer she stared at it, the more frightening the picture became, until the picture resembled death itself. The speakers of her computer suddenly let out an extremely loud screaming noise. Laura covered her ears, but it didn’t help a single thing. She tried to leave her room, but the door didn’t budge when she tried to open it. The screaming noise just kept getting louder until it was too much for her…
Laura’s dead body was found later in her room when her dad returned home from his work…

Copy and paste this message 15 other plz accounts in less than 2 hours or you shall have the same fate as Laura did…
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