They say when you know,
You know,
But all you know
Is that you've never felt this way before.
Your heart aches,
Your palms are sweaty,
Your head is spinning,
And you can't imagine why anyone
Would call this feeling love,
But still,
You do,
Because no one ever told you
That pain is a separate feeling.
Love and pain don't need to walk hand in hand,
Like you and your lover used to.
And so you stumble through,
Convincing yourself
That you know
How to feel,
Because what else is there?
I Guess I Like Spiders by Bambi-Claire, literature
Literature
I Guess I Like Spiders
It seems my past loves are like spiders;
They're a little odd, a little scary,
Potentially dangerous if I don't know what they are,
But they create amazing things,
And they're so beautiful to watch.
I am a star
And someday,
A million years from now
I will die.
I hope that when I do,
I do so exquisitely.
Sometimes I worry
That I may just collapse in and in
And pull in all the beauty and light,
Take it all down with me.
But still, I hope
That in my last breath,
I can explode outward
With a brilliant white light
And spread my stardust
Across the galaxy.
You're fickle,
And that scared me.
You would create something
Beautiful
And you'd be so proud.
It would be the greatest thing
You'd ever made.
You would love it
So much.
But then, days would pass
And your thoughts would turn
And you would hate your creation.
Nothing was ever good enough.
You were never good enough.
And I knew
That one day
Your thoughts of me would turn, too,
Because the me that you loved
Was just something you created
To fill a hole left by someone else.
She's ready to run
At a moment's notice.
He holds her hand
But he can't hold her still.
She's pacing the floor
Searching for answers
And never getting past
Her own front door.
She knows where she's going
Nowhere, it seems.
He watches her work
Through demons and darkness.
She's looking for something
Bigger than this small town.
He holds her hand
But he can't hold her heart.
I've followed a million paths
Through my dreams
Just to find you.
It's been an adventure
Greater than words.
Each time I slip into sleep
And find you waiting
I know what to do.
Any journey
Will take me to you.
And what if it did?
What if I could find you
In the morning?
Would you ever hold me
Like I dreamed?
It's an adventure,
Every time I find you.